maybe the inner nerd in me is really coming out.

ive come to a realisation after a brief conversation with an IB senior of mine that im not expected to be working hard as of yet.by right, im supposed to be partying and probably slack.i guess.well.apparently im not.ive finished my econs IA draft already.haha.but i havent done my mock IOP powerpoint yet.oh wells.ive not done the more urgent one yet.i feel really lazy.i'll do it later.i hope. (:

i borrowed tim gay's lu xun to do my mock IOP on friday hoping to complete it by last night but ive yet to touch it till now.and amazingly at 6pm today,i found my own lu xun. ((: wheee.guess i was meant to do it in the end.rarrr.ohhh.and i think tim gay has nice handwriting.it's cute. (: ahahaha.im high now.i just ate a lot.so im feeling bloated and fat.i think i'm gonna gain 2 kg.ahhh.i wish i were a kid now.then i can lose all the 'baby' fat when i kinda grow up and all.lol.im such a retard.maybe being emo is driving me crazy.

ive reached emo breaking point.i am no longer sad.which is good i guess.ive kinda lost touch with my emotions.dont know what im feeling now.dont know what to do with whatever happens around.i guess all i feel is high now.it's like im on drugs now.some chemical reaction in my body that 'creates' this drug in me.that numbs my everything.like anaesthesia for emotions.well at least im sane,depending on what you definition of sane actually i guess.haha.im really retarded.or i probably hope i am.then i wont understand anything,wont feel very much of anything,wont do very much about anything.be pretty happy and all cos everyone's attention is directed at me.yay(!)

all in all.i guess im happier now.let me help you if youre emo.please.i just really want to be someone you can relate to.emo sucks.but if you share it with me it wont suck half as much.really.smile at me would you. (:

toodles~

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